"I'm not a particularly emotional person but I've found the last couple of days quite tough"
Friday 10 July 2020 14:31, UK
Seamer Stuart Broad has told Sky Sports he sought reassurances over his future after being dropped from England's first Test of the summer left him "frustrated, angry and gutted".
The 34-year-old. who has taken 485 wickets in 138 Tests, was edged out of this week's final XI as England opted for James Anderson, Jofra Archer and Mark Wood.
While he has not always been first choice overseas for the past couple of winters he had played the previous 51 home Tests, dating back to 2012 when he was rested in a dead rubber.
Having finished as the team's top wicket-taker in the 2019 Ashes and again in the previous series in South Africa, he did not take the news meekly when temporary captain Ben Stokes delivered the news.
"I found out about 6pm the night before the game. Stokesy told me just that they're going with extra pace in these conditions," said Broad in the Sky Sports Player Zone.
"I wanted clarifications on the future going forward and I was given pretty positive feedback going forward.
"I spoke to [national selector] Ed Smith last night and he said he's involved in picking the 13 and this was picked purely for this pitch. I'm not a particularly emotional person but I've found the last couple of days quite tough. To say I'm disappointed would be an understatement: you get disappointed if you drop your phone and break your screen.
"I've been frustrated, angry and gutted - because it's quite a hard decision to understand. I've probably bowled the best I've ever bowled in the last couple of years. I felt like it was my shirt having been in the team through the Ashes
and going to South Africa and winning there."
Broad acknowledged the unusually strong field of candidates for a place but believes his annoyance at being overlooked augurs well for his own desire to come back strong.
"We're in quite a unique position this summer: very rarely do you get all your bowlers fit like we've got at the minute and all your bowlers ready to go," he said.
"I felt like I deserved a spot in the team, like everyone else. Chris Woakes, Sam Curran were bowling really well and probably deserve to be in the XI too. So it is hard to take but also I'm quite pleased I feel frustrated and feel gutted and angry because if I didn't I'd have a different decision to make.
"I don't think I've got anything to prove - England know what I can do, the selectors know what I can do - and when I get that opportunity again you can bet I'll be on the money."
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