Cambridge player Ruth Fox talks about her battle with depression
Last Updated: 13/03/18 12:42pm
There was an inspirational story on Sportswomen this week as we heard from 18-year-old footballer Ruth Fox.
The Cambridge United midfielder spoke about her battle with mental health issues, and how she has used her experiences to help others suffering from depression.
Ruth was first diagnosed with depression at the age of just 14.
She said: "My sister went to university and I just found that so difficult.
"I was just crying on end and I didn't know why I was crying.
"It took me refusing to go to school for my dad to ring the GP and book an emergency appointment, because he saw that something was up.
"That is when I got diagnosed with depression for the first time, as a 14-year-old."
Last November, Ruth reached an incredibly low point.
"I sat in my bedroom and wrote my suicide letter and I planned to take my own life the next day," she said.
"I went to bed that night thinking this is it. I felt kind of a relief that I did not have to live with my demons anymore."
The 18-year-old then opened up to the people in the game she loved and has been able to express her feelings in her book - The Unseen Battle: One young footballer's struggle off the pitch.
"I just needed to write about it so I did and it was a really cathartic thing to do and really therapeutic," she said.
"I then read it to my parents and to my coach Steve and he is the one who told me to get it published.
"He said 'there are parts in this story will resonate with a lot of people'.
"When I play football, I become the person that I want to be in real life - I become a leader. I want to work hard, I want to pull other people with me and alongside me.
"Without a doubt, it has been the thing that has saved me. Football has been my escape and the place I can be myself.
"For 90 minutes a week, I can forget about everything that is going on in my head."